6 months, half year
this is the first CNY without you. everything's fine, except without you.
we'll clean the house, have a big meal (i suggest to cook with 蔡瀾'recipy as what we see on his tv program tonite) things keep us busy. and we're planning to sell the TSW flat. somewhat i dont want to sell it anymore, yes i should be glad as this is what i think we should do for long time. but it also is our 1 place where contains our memories. where we spend our lives living together, with mom, grandpa, wendy, it's a part of bb growing place, and it can recall so much memories.
as there's nothing much left, less and less. that's why i wana keep this flat, to keep the memory. but it wont.
i always go back to Kennedy Town, where i lived and grew up, but the house's gone. sometimes back to the primary school, but i cant get inside.
to PFL, where my previous studio, it's gona break down for another commercial usage soon.
everything seems cant hold for long, not in my life, in my mind.
it's gone and it's gone.
i go to Tai Koo Shing today after school. the mall's completely different than before, i try to recall the memory with grandpa, which we used to dine and see movie. this is here as it used to, this looks so much alike or almost the same, but it's different to me, it's completely gone and those memory are out of most ppl lives.
am i the only one who cant let go?
like the butterfly and the moth, which always live and stay in my heart.
wish everybody stays healthy and happy.
this is the 1st cny w/o mama...if she's here, her tailor-made 'tuen nin' menu will be posted on the fridge door...n i'll ask what exactly are the dishes, cuz u can hardly tell from the name...
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yanyan, we all change, more or less...keep the memorable moments in mind, sweet n bitter...
u know what when i encounter problem or sth sad, i'll think what will kung kung do if he faced the same situation...i'll become strong as u know kung kung is an optimist, i like the way he perceives life...i always say, life is short, the problem or the saddness u have now actually is very small when u look back at 70yr old...so i choose to 'enjoy' all the changes