taiwan

first time here rains and cold everyday

glad to meet ling and she took us to the class, so much fun and had great time!

Face It

some people are born to be strong, physically or spiritually
im strong, can be tough
yet, sometimes, im weak, weaker than anyone else in certain points

im not an anxious person
im serious to something or someone i care

we used to take care of him
we used to talk and cry when he is sick

i try to be tough after you're gone
in every way

im not afraid when im sick
im not afriad about my life, career, the world
but im afriad seeing him getting sick and in pain

seeing him in pain or feel bad
it makes my heartbroken
i try to avoid everything that may possibly lead to this feeling
finally i cant escape from it

i feel all alone
after you're gone
seem only me take care of him
sis not often arround, cant depend on pa

sometimes i think because you're afraid to face him die so you leave us first

stupid me know i gotta face it from the very first day he came to our home
he'll leave us, leave me one day

i should have the preparation (the previously false diagnose
and now here we are (again)
i have to force myself to face it every single day

BB

OLD

seems far from me

but im getting old, ppl surround me are getting old

and i forget BB is getting old as well



he isnt quite well after i get him back from pet shop yesterday, loses his balance (he's been drunk steps over months, thought it's normal for the old dogs, and i told the Dr Ho previously during his body-check, but Dr ho seems not bother and i put it aside as long as it's not getting worse)



yesterday, the staggering gait (lose balance) lasts for an hour, & it isnt getting better, cant even walk to the toilet, so i take him to the doc immediately.



Dr Tim Choi said he may get inner ear infection, canine peripheral vestibular syndrome / brain tumor / cancer...it can be serious, that's what he says, to diagnosis more precise, do MRI (磁力共振), of course i dont want him to do that as it needs body paralytic (fully) and the doc not suggests it unless there's no other choices.

so, he injects him a 骨針 and pain killer, then i'll report Dr Choi coming thursday.

I wake up at 5:45 this morning, to feed B, he has little trouble to eat the food with water, so i feed him, he shacks his head few times, but the limbs coordination is much better. no problem with pee and poo.

he's quite well today, so i take him for walks after his breakfast and nap.

we have a happy walk

bless us mom