no regret

i wish
i could be stronger
be more confident
i do not want to make excuses
no more regret

i want to work aboard
i hesitate
not because im afraid to go alone
but it means i have to leave home

before my mom past away,
she was really sick and i gotta take care of her, cant leave
but now she's gone

i need to take care of dad and bb
if i go now
i'll be apart from my family, bb and dad
and i'll be absent in their lives for a year

bb was sick before, and im really worried about him
i promise myself to keep him happy till last
and i need to take care of him

but then
what about me